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Dear Charley

Miss. Charley Pollard

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Charley,

I know you probably don't want to read this right now. I'm pretty sure you don't have want anything to do with me anymore. And that's completely understandable. I don't want much to do with me either. But if you could, I'd like for you to read this. Even once is okay.

Charley, you have been the answer to everything my best friend. When I was on the Charon, I was completely miserable. I believed that I was crazy, and that everyone else thought so too. There were a lot of unhealthy things going through my mind, but when I met you, there was just something that made me think differently you helped me you made me feel like I mattered. Not so much mattering in ' I have a purpose on this ship ' but like in that my existence mattered. You wanted me there and you wanted me to stay.

You're a beautiful woman, inside and out. There's no doubt that everyone agrees including your doctor friend, and there's no reason why you should think any differently. You're smart, and you're beautiful and witty and enlarging the best thing I could have asked for here. You saved me.

I don't know what happened. I didn't want it to happen
it wasn't me and i

Things happened that I really regret. I can't explain how much I hate myself for hurting you There are things that I really can't describ
I don't know what happened, but it

I don't know how to explain this. I want to tell you that it wasn't me that hurt you. I want to say that I didn't mean it at all and I never wanted to hurt you. There's nothing more I want to do than say than I don't know what happened and just to forget it. But none of that would make sense would it? I [ a few frustrated squiggles can be seen. ]

This is really hard. I don't know what to say other than I love you and that it wasn't me
it wasn't me. I never wanted to hurt you before, and I don't want to hurt you now. I want to tell you everything's going to be okay and not to worry because it'll never happen again. But that sounds bad.

Maybe I am crazy. I don't know anymore. I don't think anyone will.

Thanks for reading this, Charley. And I really do love you, no matter what you think or what has happened.

Sincerely,

Ryan Newman